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Veronyka

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Assemblage 23 Live at The White Rabbit! [09 Sep 2007|05:09pm]

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VNV NATION info for SATX show! [14 Jun 2007|02:59pm]
Friday June15th @ The White Rabbit


Twin Productions presents....

VNV NATION (10:30)
Imperative Reaction (9:30)

with special guests...
CTRL (8:30)

@ The White Rabbit
San Antonio, TX
2410 N. St. Mary's


Doors @ 8pm
Cover - $20
THERE WILL BE AN AFTER PARTY @ THE WHITE RABBIT with Dj's
MADMAXX and CIRCADIAN.

RONAN and MARK will be at the after party to mingle with the fans :)

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Nekromantix TONIGHT @ The White Rabbit SATX [20 Apr 2007|05:06pm]

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ADULT tomorrow night @ Rock Bottom!!! [18 Apr 2007|01:12pm]

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St. Patty's Day @ The Rabbit!! [17 Mar 2007|12:28pm]

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Taking Back Sunday is NOT sold out!! [27 Feb 2007|02:01pm]
Tickets are still available for tonights Taking Back Sunday/Underoath show at Sunset Station.

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Let them eat cupcakes! [26 Feb 2007|08:34pm]
Somethings are just never gonna get easier. Ten years from now the thought of my kids around another will not be easier. I'm gonna go eat more cupcakes. Love you Davey, thanks for today :)

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"Oh my beautiful one....." [26 Feb 2007|01:45pm]
What a week! First of all my kids are doing very well :) Kaleb got a mohawk this week, he looks gorgeous!! Looks a lot like his dad now though..:/ Lilith got her six weeks report card in and she is doing great in school. I love them so much, so proud of them. They are my life!!
On to the shows...
Wednesday was Cradle Of Filth. Wow. I used to be a big fan of COF. So doing this show was pretty fucking cool. The bands were so very nice , Dani Filth is a total sweetheart, it was nice talking to him. Turns out one of the tour managers is in H20, very cool.
Thursday was Daughtry, Chris Daughtry was very nice as well, the bass player for Daughtry is in Suicidal Tendencies, great conversations that night! I got to spend time with someone very special to me on Thursday, if you saw me that night then you saw him. Ive been pushing him away for about 5 months now, but about once every two weeks I just need to see him, I really like him, but its complicated, He reminds me too much of someone and it scares me that that is what I am attracted to. He's really beautiful to me in a very unique way. He doesn't know anyone, he doesn't hang out in the "scene" to him I am just Veronyka, he doesn't care what I do, he doesn't want free entry to shows etc. in fact he pays for everything and he seems not to notice my many imperfections, he tells me I am perfect and that he is lucky to have me in his life. It feels good. We talk everyday on the phone or through txt messaging but we see each other rarely, but when we do its so good , and so much fun. His lips feel good on mine, not awkward but familiar in some strange way. I don't know. I'm to scared to let it become anything more, I'm not ready. I don't know if I will ever be.
Friday was Scars of Tomorrow and Unleashed. Good show but I wasn't feeling it. I was too distracted by being with him the night before , I needed to clear my head so naturally I went to watch a horror movie by myself, The Abandoned, it was pretty good, then I went home to cuddle with my babies.
Saturday was Kittie and Walls Of Jehrico, WOJ were amazing as always! Our good friend Jessie that we've known since SIN 13 days and used to be in New Dead Radio but is now in In This Moment was in town. It was awesome hanging out with him, one of the many great people we have met and become friends with in this buisiness. Went over to Joey's for a while, still feeling distracted I went home.
I have another very busy week ahead and Im looking forward to it. I love my job, I am so happy with our company and with my partnership with Erica, finally it seems things are paying off for me in this buisiness(sp?).
So the fact that I am still kinda reeling from seeing him this last time concerns me. I saw him very briefly today , just for a couple minutes and I found myself wanting more of him, which means, I need to break away quick. I am so focused on work and kids right now that I don't think I have the time to make anyone happy. DXH/AFI lyrics run through my head as always .........

"Don't waste your touch, you won't feel anything
Or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much, you won't find anything...
Worthy of redeeming"

I just don't think I have it in me. I feel like I gave everything I had already and there's nothing left. He deserves all of me, not what's left of me. I don't think ill ever be whole again. Yet his lips feel good on mine, not awkward, but familiar in a strange way....

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HUGE SHOW AT THE RABBIT THIS FRIDAY!!! [20 Feb 2007|12:59pm]

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HUGE SHOW AT THE RABBIT THIS FRIDAY!!! [20 Feb 2007|12:56pm]

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Revelations [15 Feb 2007|05:22pm]
I think sometimes you cant really judge a relationship until you take a huge step back and really think about it, sometimes it takes seeing how the person whom you had the relationship with treats another to make you realise what really went wrong. I have recently had the very real revelation that I did not mean very much to this person, sure we had 8 years and 2 kids together, but in seeing his actions in his current relationship , the public acts of love, how proud he is to be with her , things I never experienced with him but always longed for, its plain to see what a big farce our relationship was. I know now that if I had meant to him as much as she does maybe we would have worked out, but now I see the difference in how he acts when he really loves someone and how he acts when he doesnt. Trust me it hurts and it is very embarassing to admit this but I have to. I have to accept that he is right, our relationship was a waste of time. I wish he had posted that he loved me on our many valentines days together, but no. I wish that my picture had been on his messenger icon , but.....no. Nothing like that, ever. Had I had that kind of acknowledgement , maybe then I wouldnt have been so insecure about us. In any case dont misunderstand this as me being hung up on him, I am way over him and actually quite happy. Its just a realization of how much time was wasted on someone who never really loved me and never gave me my place as he has done with her. I am happy for her, I am glad she will know his love , i never did, but Im ok with that. He was the love of my life and that kind of love isnt always returned, I just wasnt the right one for him, he could not love me like that, and its theraputic to say..................its ok.

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Valentines Day Dinner!! [13 Feb 2007|05:46pm]
We are hosting a lonely hearts Valentines Day dinner at our place on YES February 14th @ around 7pm. Come over and eat , drink your loneliness away by being in the company of other bitter peeps!! LOL

February 14th
7pm
Drinks and Food
Call For Directions
210.383.7416

Hosted by Veronyka . Kelly . Vanessa

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Of Montreal Tonight @ The Rabbit w/Dj Jester!! [21 Jan 2007|11:43am]

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CHEAP DRNKS!! [18 Jan 2007|11:00am]
FRIDAY NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
at the SANCTUARY

NEW NIGHT

FEATURING CHRIS SMART, BART, AND WALKER SPINNING THE BEST IN INDIE, ROCK, 80'S UNDERGROUND, AND LOTS MORE!

EVERYTHING FROM GARY NEWMAN TO JESUS AND MARY CHAIN TO DEATH FROM ABOVE TO THE BRAVERY TO GENERATION X TO SOCIAL D! BASICALLY, ANYTHING THAT IS KOOL

CHECK IT OUT....WHAT ELSE ARE YOU GONNA DO?

DRINK SPECIALS:
$1 WELLS TILL 10
$2 ALL NIGHT after 10!!
$2 Lonestar all night!

VANESSA WILL BE YOUR BARTENDER ALL NITE SO COME VISIT HER!

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BLITZ this Friday @ The White Rabbit!! [18 Jan 2007|10:46am]
Doors @ 7pm

MDK

The Booked

Dead End Scene

Second To None

Filthy and The Muff Divers

Resiliance

Blitz

The White Rabbit
2410 N.St.Marys
SATX

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The Cruxshadows TONIGHT @ THE SANCTUARY!! [13 Jan 2007|04:01pm]

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TONIGHT @ the Sanctuary... [12 Jan 2007|04:00pm]
THIS FRIDAY!

FREE COVER ALL NIGHT
$1 WELLS TILL 10pm!!!
$2 All Wells ALL NIGHT!!!
Special Guest Dj Dogbone with
BART AND SMART of The Unusual Suspects!!



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This Weekend @ The Sanctuary!! SATX [09 Jan 2007|11:17am]


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FRIDAYS @ THE SANCTUARY!! [08 Jan 2007|05:00pm]

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THE CRUXSHADOWS/AYRIA THIS SATURDAY!!!SATX!! [08 Jan 2007|04:06pm]

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